I’ve made it a point to write a new post each week since the start of Blue Love Blog. As you may have noticed, you haven’t seen any writings from me in the past two weeks. Here’s why….
My grandmother passed away somewhat unexpectedly on April 11th. My family and I had noticed that she wasn’t doing well a few weeks ago after she was diagnosed with AFIB (Atrial Fibrillation of the Heart), and took her to the ER. She was then given the diagnosis of congestive heart failure and was put into hospice care shortly after.
This was the first time that I’ve had to deal with someone so close to me passing away. I’ve never experienced something so surreal and heart-breaking before, and had no idea what to expect from it. We watched her make her final requests to see family members, and requests for what she wanted from us (food, music, beer, and a good-looking man. She was a hoot!). We also heard some not so pleasant words of her talking about death. She knew that she was going to go soon.
It’s crazy to see someone in that state. They are somewhat themselves, but they also start to revert back to childlike days, talking about memories from long ago. It’s also difficult to see your family members all handling the event in different ways, some who seem to cope just fine, and others who just lose themselves.
My grandmother was able to see all of her family members in time, and passed peacefully in her sleep. The doctors all said that she was not in pain. We had a beautiful service for her a few days later, and received an abundance of love and support from family, friends, and people we had never met before that knew her.
Now we have so many great memories to cherish. Memories of family cookouts, holidays, and music. Boy, she loved her music and she sang and played guitar in her younger days (I guess that is where I get it from). She also kept thousands of pictures of our time together. She literally had a camera in her hand (the old disposable kind) every time we were all together. What a great way to live!
I could keep talking about her all day, but what I’ve learned from her is this. Don’t take any one day of life for granted. Celebrate the good, work through the bad, and learn from the ugly. Cherish your loved ones. Say hello to a stranger you pass by. Life is beautiful, and we are all blessed to live it.
I’ve taken some time to reflect on her passing, and have spent time with family, but I also gave time to myself. I took a trip to Ocracoke beach in the Outer Banks, NC. (I’ve mentioned this beach in previous posts), and it was much-needed. Salt water is the most healing for me!
I am working on some new posts that you will see over the next few weeks (more up-lifting and fun).
I appreciate the patience, love and support, and hope that you enjoy these upcoming posts.
Your Singing Mermaid, xoxo